I love forget-me-not flowers, the colors are so pretty, and there is just something about these delicate little flowers that I find so endearing. And equally as endearing is the sweet sentiment of 'forget me not'.
Well, this post is not about those pretty little blooms, and it's not about lovely sentiments, it is about the fact that I forget everything! I wish I could say I had a photographic memory, or a mind like a steel trap, once it's in there it is locked in tight. But that is not me at all. As much as I love the forget-me-not flower, it in no way represents my mind. I forget appointments, I forget birthdays, I forget times and dates, when I say that I forget everything, I mean that I forget everything. I've heard that you forget things that don't really matter to you, but I hope that's not true, because that would mean that nothing really matters to me. I literally spend half my day drawing a blank on so many, many things. And I don't think I can blame it on my age, I think I've always been like this. I think that's why I didn't do well in school, I don't retain anything! Well, I retain bits and pieces, but not the whole of anything. I don't know geography or history, (and let's not even mention math or science!). Names, dates, places ~ I either draw a blank, or it's all a sort of muddled blur inside my head most times. And it's not just facts and figures that throw me for a loop, it's people and faces too! You should hear me trying to come up with the name of an actor or an actress, I'll say, "You know him, he has dark hair, and he was in that movie that I like with that actress with the blond hair, she was married to another actor but now they're divorced, and the movie they were in was that love story, and it was kind of a long movie, and he was also in that funny movie about the guys that went on some kind of western vacation with that old actor that did push-ups at the Oscars one year." That about sums up a conversation with me! I'm very lucky that Ray is used to me and most times he'll actually come up with the actor and the actress and the movie that I was thinking of! (Do any of you have any idea who I'm thinking about and what the movie was?) But that's the least of it. I have been late for and/or completely missed countless dentist appointments and hairdresser appointments, and if I had a dollar for every time I've raced out this door at the last minute to go pick up Jayden from school because I've forgotten whether this is a half-day or a full-day for him, well, I'd be going on a nice shopping spree now! I forget to pay bills, I forget about lunch dates with friends, I forget to buy birthday cards (even when I have it all written down on a list for myself), I forget to mail bills and birthday cards, I forget ingredients in recipes, I forget directions, I forget where I put my glasses when I've just put them down! I forget what time I'm supposed to meet up with Ray when we are shopping, and I forget where we said we'd meet! If you ask me to do something, you better remind me over and over again, because ten minutes after our conversation, it has probably gone right out of my head!
If you are one of those people that have a good memory for history, and facts, and figures, and dates, I applaud you! And if you are one of those people that has a good memory just for the everyday things in life, well, I am extremely envious of you! Please tell me, what is your secret? Oh, and if ever we get to meet face-to-face, don't be offended if I've forgotten your name!
I love my life. There is not one person I can think of that I would want to change places with. The older I get the more comfortable I am with myself, and each day makes me more grateful for the Blessings God Has Bestowed on me. Truly, my cup runneth over.