Yesterday my daughter Katie took Jayden into work with her. When they got there she called to tell me they had arrived safely, I was busy and didn't pick up before she hung up. She called again and she said this time it just rang and rang (I was on with my sister at the time and didn't hear that anyone was trying to cut in). She finally got me on the line and said that she had been worried when I didn't answer, and then she put Jayden on the phone and I asked him if he had been worried too and he said, "No. Just Mommy was worried. I knew I didn't have to worry, because I know you're gonna live two more years."
I said, "What?! What did you say? Did you say two more years or twenty more years?"
And Jayden said, "I said two. Oh, nevermind, just forget about it, you're not supposed to know anyway."
Whoa! Where did that come from?
I got to thinking how I would spend the next two years if I knew they'd be my last two on earth. I know I'd want to make a lot of changes. I'm starting now to make those changes, but boy, would I feel rushed to do it all in a New York minute if I thought I only had two years left!
But, mostly, I thought about how much I miss God in my life.
And, oddly enough, or maybe not so oddly at all, yesterday, which happened to be my Mom's Birthday, while thinking about all this I came across Birgit Whelan's blog and her post title was: "I MISS GOD".
And she welcomed to her blog anyone who was feeling that God was missing from their life. And she went on to say that we don't have to do anything or say anything to be welcomed by God, and to have a relationship with Him all we need is to go to Him, to just be in His Presence, in His Love, which cannot be earned, and which will never be taken away. She reminded me that God will never turn us away in our brokenness.
"A broken and sorrowing heart, O God, You will not put from You" ~ Psalm 51:17
"Come to Me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." ~ Matthew 11:28
Well, I don't know if it's two years more I have on this earth, or twenty more, or less. I only know that I'm grateful for the reminders I find that tell me to hold fast to all that is of true worth and true value, and hold on to only that.
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