Saturday, March 26, 2011

"I Know You're Gonna Live Two More Years"

Yesterday my daughter Katie took Jayden into work with her. When they got there she called to tell me they had arrived safely, I was busy and didn't pick up before she hung up. She called again and she said this time it just rang and rang (I was on with my sister at the time and didn't hear that anyone was trying to cut in). She finally got me on the line and said that she had been worried when I didn't answer, and then she put Jayden on the phone and I asked him if he had been worried too and he said, "No. Just Mommy was worried. I knew I didn't have to worry, because I know you're gonna live two more years."
I said, "What?! What did you say? Did you say two more years or twenty more years?"
And Jayden said, "I said two. Oh, nevermind, just forget about it, you're not supposed to know anyway."
Whoa! Where did that come from?

I got to thinking how I would spend the next two years if I knew they'd be my last two on earth. I know I'd want to make a lot of changes. I'm starting now to make those changes, but boy, would I feel rushed to do it all in a New York minute if I thought I only had two years left!

But, mostly, I thought about how much I miss God in my life.

And, oddly enough, or maybe not so oddly at all, yesterday, which happened to be my Mom's Birthday, while thinking about all this I came across Birgit Whelan's blog and her post title was: "I MISS GOD".
And she welcomed to her blog anyone who was feeling that God was missing from their life. And she went on to say that we don't have to do anything or say anything to be welcomed by God, and to have a relationship with Him all we need is to go to Him, to just be in His Presence, in His Love, which cannot be earned, and which will never be taken away. She reminded me that God will never turn us away in our brokenness.
"A broken and sorrowing heart, O God, You will not put from You" ~ Psalm 51:17
"Come to Me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." ~ Matthew 11:28

Well, I don't know if it's two years more I have on this earth, or twenty more, or less. I only know that I'm grateful for the reminders I find that tell me to hold fast to all that is of true worth and true value, and hold on to only that.



    Wow, out of the mouths of babes, huh? Scary and intense for sure. And clearly a catalyst for things to change. Go easy on yourself because from where I sit you are "good stuff" - tried and true. Maybe too it is a time to recall and hold fast to all that you are that is loving and kind -
    Love to you

  2. You are an angel on earth, dear friend. Your love for the Lord shines through your writing and you are a sincere blessing to all of us. Big hugs! Lori

  3. Sweet little Jayden. 2 years to him is like 40 to us. I think he meant it as a long long time you have to live. A little boy I know recently asked his mom who would take care of him if she and his dad died. He told his mom not to leave him with his grandparents because they would be dead in 2 weeks! Time has such different meaning for little people.

  4. Wow! Funny how children can make us really think about life!! However, I don' t think little ones have a concept of time. They don't usually think much about dying, but more about living!!! Maybe you need to become like a little child. Wouldn't that be fun? I would love to have all that energy!!!

    I miss God too!!! Where is He these days?? I want to come to Him and feel his presence, yet, I am not sure how to find that.

  5. how do I find Birgit's blog?

  6. Know how little concept of time the young ones have I'm not surprised! TWO years is a very long time! Not so much form me any more, but believe me it is for them! Have a grand day! Cathy

  7. Jayden is precious and you know you live with God in your heart every day my friend.....he is in all your blessings and you more than anyone I know are aware of how blessed you are.Sending big hugs.....:-)

  8. Jayden is so cute, he probably meant "at least" two more years. Whats really funny is at his age, two years seems like a lifetime and we know that it goes all too fast!
    I love having God in my life and I feel him in my heart everyday. I have always believed that if you talk to him all of the time, aloud or to yourself, he is there, always listening.
    He is always in your heart too Eileen. This I know to be true! Love Di ♥

  9. What a precious post. "So teach us to number our days that we may apply our hearts to wisdom" it says SOMEWHERE in the Bible. We should ALL have such a reality check occasionally!